Mental Illness Awareness Week- My Story

Today is the start of “Mental Illness Awareness Week”. 


Light at the end of the tunnel
Park trail

This year’s theme is “My Story”. Its hope is to encourage people to share their own stories and experiences with mental health in order to help others feel like they are not alone. 

Make a wish

This has been my main purpose of sharing my own journey so openly and honestly for 6 plus years now; the good, the bad and the very ugly parts included. 


Choo choo

My mental illness has felt like it’s winning a lot lately, add to that all my unrelenting and still unresolved neurological issues and now my more recent stomach concerns too and it’s left me unable to focus on much of anything and with little desire to write anymore, but then yesterday I was reminded once again why I share my story after receiving another personal message from a stranger who’d found a Blog I’d posted two years ago on Facebook.


It gave me the push I needed today to take advantage of the summer-like temperatures on the 1st of October while still being able to take in the beauty of the Fall season. Our #summerofrich adventure combined two of my favourite things; nature and animals. 

Otters feeding time
Alpacas


Today felt like a win.


#mentalillnessawarenessweek #nature #animals #youarenotalone #mystory #yourmentalhealthmatters #youareenough #shareyourstory #summerinoctober #fallseason #itsoktonotbeok #itsoktoaskforhelp #mentalhealth #Peterborough #riverviewparkandzoo #treatmentresistantdepression #purpose #myjourney #thegoodthebadandtheugly 

Labels Hurt

Depression used to be a word I’d only heard about in textbooks. It was certainly never a word I’d have ever used to describe myself some 10 years ago. 

Who’d ever want such a label attached to their name? To be looked upon as “crazy” or “defective”. It’s hurtful, it’s stigmatizing and downright demoralizing.

It leaves you feeling broken.

Depression is not a one size fits all diagnosis, just like any other illness. 

It has opened up a whole other side of me I never knew existed before. So much I should be proud of. So much I am proud of.

I am not just my illness. I am so much more. And so are you.

#mentalhealth #mentalillness #depression #treatmentresistant #anxiety #iamnotmyillness #somuchmore #labelshurt #endthestigmatogether #youareenough #youarenotalone 

21- Happy Birthday Rachel

Then and Now

Happy birthday to my smart, fierce, beautiful, passionate, uber-talented baby girl 🎂 🥳 


As you hit 21 today, like in a game of Blackjack (21!), remember that life is about taking chances, and lots of them, even when you may feel like the cards are stacked against you or that you may lose sometimes, because you will never know the endless possibilities if not. Life isn’t about finding yourself. It’s about creating yourself. 


Never lose your sense of wonder. 


I love you more than you will ever know, Rachel, and no matter where life takes you, you can bet against all odds that I will always be your biggest cheerleader.


May your special day today be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter and love, and of course, cake!


I wish you all that life has to offer. Keep dreaming out loud today and always ❤️ 


#happybirthday #birthdaywishes #makeawish #dreamoutloud #babyofthefamily #youngestsibling #twentyone #blackjack #youareenough #dreamoutloud #eatcake #futureinteriordesigner 

Forgiveness and Healing

The other night I wrote that I’d been dealing with a very toxic situation in my life for the better part of 3 months now. To be honest, it’d actually been quite torcherous and traumatic some days. It was consuming my entire life. It was all I could think about and talk about and focus on for weeks and months now. I’ve not only felt the decline in my mental health from it, but with my neurological symptoms too. I am also pretty certain that it’s no coincidence and possibly the reason why I have lost 30 pounds over the past 2 months from my lack of appetite, constant nausea and an undiagnosed stress-induced ulcer that my doctor is still investigating. 

Overall, the whole situation had left me feeling beyond overwhelmed, emotionally exhausted and to the point that just days ago I seriously contemplated driving my car into a brick wall because I felt so defeated and trapped. And of course, just to make matters worse, being the empath that I am had left me further torchered by carrying the emotions of everyone else involved too, but as I also mentioned the other night, the situation has finally been rectified which means the healing process can now begin.

Tonight starts the holiday of Yom Kippur which is considered to be the holiest and most important day of the year in the Jewish faith and is as well, a day where many Jews fast and while doing so are encouraged to atone for any wrongdoings and ask others for forgiveness in order to repair the wrongdoings from the past year. 

It is also a time to forgive others and ourselves as well. It is important to come to Yom Kippur with a clean slate and forgiveness is such an important part of the healing process as “it allows us to let go of our anger, guilt, shame, sadness, along with any other feelings we may experience in order to move on.”

“Forgiveness isn’t approving what happened. It’s choosing to rise above it.” – Robin Sharma

Wishing all my family and friends celebrating, an easy, reflective and meaningful fast.

#yomkippur #forgiveness #meaningful #reflective #healing #trauma #introspection #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #youareenough #empath #atonement #wrongdoings #emotionallyexhausted #selfcare #nationalselfcareawarenessmonth #nationalsuicideawarenessmonth 

End of summer 2023 highlights

Repost *Please enjoy some of the highlights from #summerofrich 2023

Today is the first full day of Fall.

You can already feel it in the air at night.

I have to say that I do love summer more than all the other seasons combined but who could argue that there is just something about Fall that gives us a fresh outlook or perspective.

Fall gives us an opportunity for change, to meet new people, to set new goals and to find ways to motivate ourselves as we dive back into more regular daily routines.

The cooler temps and vibrant colours on the trees make us want to immerse ourselves in nature. Such incredible benefits for our mental health.

Fall often means more time to spend with family whether it be during holidays or sipping on pumpkin spice lattes or chowing down on Halloween candy.

With the winter blues on the horizon for many, Fall is a great time to embrace nature’s healing powers and resilience.

Describe your perfect Fall day.

Fall #autumn #change #goals #nature #resilience #healingpowers #endofsummer #winterblues #ilovesummer #summerofrich #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #vibrantfallcolours #coolertemps #whatisyourperfectfallday

Weight lifted

For the better part of 3 months now I’ve been dealing with a very toxic situation.


The emotions that have arisen from the toxicity had seeped into every aspect of my life, leading to a decline in both my mental and physical wellbeing and leaving me feeling unworthy.


Several close friends and family (along with my therapist) have had the pleasure of listening to me vent my frustration and anger and sadness for weeks and weeks now. 


This post is for all of you who have listened to me with intent during this difficult time and allowed me a safe space to let my feelings be heard and supported. Today the situation was finally rectified and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have been relieved of a huge burden that has left me sleepless and crying night after night and anxious as fuck day after day for months now.


Thank you so much to everyone who continues to check in on me regularly and help me get through this crazy ride. 


Today calls for champagne 🍾 


#weightlifted #feelingheard #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #heavyburden #support #friendship #family #checkonyourfriends #toxicity #emotions #itsoktonotbeok #askforhelp #gratitude #youareenough 



Happy 24th birthday Hannah Banana!

There’s so much about you that I love.

You are funny, smart, loving, kind, and have a heart of gold.

Keep shining your beautiful spirit around and never ever stop being you!

May your special day be filled with love, joy, warm wishes, and, of course, cake!

We love you to the moon and back, forever and a day!

#happybirthday #twentyfour #birthdaygirl #middlechild #kindhearted #beautiful #warmwishes #cake #heartofgold #hannahbanana #youareenough #loveyoutothemoonandback #foreverandaday

5,4,3,2,1

Today has been a particularly difficult day for me as I continue to try and contend with several personal things going on in my life right now. 


My anxiety was next level today at work. I couldn’t focus. I just wanted to run.


Often a person’s first reaction when dealing with anxiety in a public or social setting is to run. But I know from experience that if we run from our anxiety we may find ourselves unable to return to a place that may have caused it and slowly we begin to fear leaving our home altogether. 


Today while in the midst of a severe anxiety attack at work, I began practicing some breathing and grounding techniques. 


These techniques are essential and I didn’t care that I was at my place of work with others nearby, it was imperative in the moment and it is imperative that we learn to build up a tolerance for discomfort.


Try this next time you find yourself ready to run from your anxiety in a public or social setting. 


Stop in your tracks instead. 


Look around for 5 things you See.

Find 4 things you Touch.

Listen for 3 things you can Hear.

2 things you can Smell.


And…1 thing you can taste.


It can literally be anything. Use your imagination and your senses to redirect your focus and be present in the moment. Don’t run. Give yourself a chance to see, hear, touch, smell and taste the victory next time.


And remember you are ok…and safe.


#anxiety #dontrun #selfcare #youarenotalone #lookaround #seeheartouchsmelltaste #fivesenses #headspace #breathe #fivefourthreetwoone #breathingtechniques #youaresafe #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #useyourimagination #youareenough #selfcareawarenessmonth #suicidepreventionmonth #grounding

World Suicide Prevention Day; Creating Hope Through Action

Today is September 10th, 2023. 

Today is also “World Suicide Prevention Day”

Today I wanted nothing more than to stay in bed all day but I just couldn’t quiet the guilt or intrusive and racing thoughts which quickly led to an eruption of emotions, including lots of tears.

So I pushed myself to get up and go for a hike today because I knew it was the one thing that would help quiet the guilt, anxiety and intrusive thoughts. But had I chosen instead to stay in bed all day, that would’ve been perfectly okay too.

This is me. I struggle every. single. day of my life with “treatment resistant Depression”, severe anxiety, panic attacks and both active and passive thoughts of suicide, but I refuse to allow anyone to ever make me feel ashamed for having a mental illness and I will keep doing all that I can to continue spreading awareness and “Creating Hope Through Action” (this year’s World Suicide Prevention Day theme). Since I began sharing my mental health journey so openly some 6 years ago, I have made myself a promise to never stop sharing my story, to never stop educating those who are willing to listen, to never stop helping others understand how it feels to live with a mental illness; to feel broken, ashamed, hopeless or suicidal and I have made myself a promise that no one ever feel alone in their own struggle because no matter what, you are worthy and it’s okay to ask for help. 

So go ahead and reach out to someone in your life today (even those who smile and laugh the most) and let them know that no matter what they are going through right now that you love them, you are there for them (even to just sit with them in silence) and that they are enough.

Opening up conversations about mental health and suicide saves lives; Every. Single. Day.

#worldsuicidepreventionday #selfcare #youarenotalone #youareenough #selfcare #everysingleday #startaconversation #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #summerofrich #hiking #clarity #nature #itsoktoaskforhelp #itsoktonotbeok #selfcaresunday #nationalselfcaremonth #nationalsuicideawarenessmonth