Do You Ever Feel Like Everyone Hates You?

Well then you are not alone. 

It is especially common to have such an amplified negative perception of yourself; whether true or not when battling anxiety or other types of mood and personality disorders.

Hate is a very intense and strong emotion and one that can really take its  toll on your health.

I have an incredible support system in my life. My friends are forever checking in on me and when plans are made with them they are always going out of their way to accommodate my often long list of limitations and boundaries to ensure I feel safe and comfortable no matter the situation (attending my girlfriend’s bridal shower yesterday afternoon was no exception 殺). 

Yet my illness still continually tries to tell me that everyone hates me and that the world would be much better off without me in it.

When you are constantly worrying about what everyone else thinks of you, somewhere along the way you stop liking yourself and you quickly lose sight of all the wonderful things about you while trying to meet the expectations or approval of others or at the very least, their version of who you should be. 

Although extremely difficult, I still continue to fight each and every day to try and not lose sight of all the amazing parts of me even though it’s so much easier to focus all my attention on my negative beliefs and just ignore the positive ones completely. 

We have no control over how others view us so it’s best to just do you and if someone doesn’t understand why you do the things you do try and cut them some slack; afterall, you may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but that’s okay. 

This past week has been excruciatingly painful; mentally, physically and personally. My spirit is broken and simply put, it feels way beyond repair. 

Several friends rallied around. I know in my heart that I am worthy of love but more importantly, that I am loved and I am holding on to that feeling for dear life right now with an abundance of gratitude and appreciation.

#brokenspirit #selflove #hate #selfhate #friendship #loveyourself #gratitude #appreciation #youarenotalone #negativeselftalk #youareenough #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #depression #treatmentresistant #anxiety #suicidalideations #suicideawareness 

Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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