Another day. Another appointment. Another specialist.
At least today’s appointment came with an actual step forward; root canals on three of my front teeth.
It’s the first of many more steps and several more specialists to come. I still have to continue wearing the wire on my teeth until my appointment in a few weeks, which really sucks, but finally, there is a starting point.
No guarantees. No promises. Just a starting point.
And honestly, I’m beyond overwhelmed today.
I’m carrying so much anxiety, fear and uncertainty, and today it all caught up with me. Leaving the specialist’s office, I made it to my car before completely breaking down in tears. The tears continued all the way to work… and beyond.
There are still so many uncertainties. So much trauma. So many fears about what comes next. And then there’s the financial reality of all of this.
Because fixing what happened isn’t going to be simple. It’s going to take time, many procedures, several specialists, and a whole lot of money. More than I even want to think about right now.
And then, as if on cue, Facebook reminded me of a memory from 15 years ago this week when I walked into a casino, put $20 into a 2-cent slot machine… and somehow walked out with a $10,000 jackpot.
Boy, could I use some of that luck, or a miracle right about now. This time, I could really use a windfall to help get my teeth back in the game!
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