Yesterday’s blog I posted was pretty heavy. I know. (In case you missed it though: https://youareenough712.wordpress.com/2022/09/20/tmi/)
By the time I finished writing it, it was well after 4am but I was up anyways as I’d been anxiously awaiting a text from Jacob to let me know that he’d landed safely in Israel. My imagination seems to run into overdrive at those hours of the night (well technically the morning) and is definitely when my thoughts feel most despairing which I’m sure many of you can relate to.
I’m very overwhelmed right now to say the least, and writing has become such a cathartic outlet for me so I started writing earlier that evening to help try and calm my distressing thoughts and I just kept on writing and then writing some more. I guess I just needed to get my thoughts out of my head.
I wasn’t sure the more I sat and wrote that I was actually intending to share it publicly as I wasn’t sure how it would be received, but I’m very glad I did. The outpouring of love and genuine concern I received after people read my post was immeasurable. I received messages from people asking how they can support me, others privately offering up some suggestions and resources for me and many more just messaging me to check in to see if I was okay and safe.
There was also a general theme present in many of the messages I received both on and offline yesterday which I’ve heard time and time again since I first began sharing my journey; Kim you are so brave.
I honestly don’t see myself as brave at all.
Sharing my story has become second nature for me. It gives me purpose. Being authentic and real gives me purpose. I am not ashamed to talk about the struggles I go through living with a mental illness, it’s only given me more purpose which is why I don’t necessarily consider myself brave.
I will say though that maybe it takes a great deal of courage to do what I do (especially yesterday) given how mental illness is so misconceived and misunderstood by so much of society still and the stigma that’s very much attached to it.
We all struggle with one thing or another in our lives but too many of us unfortunately still choose to do so in silence which is why I am perceived as someone who is so brave. Bravery is being afraid to do something but doing it anyways so my guess is l bet we all have the power within us to be brave!
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