Hall Pass

*Trigger Warning ⚠️*

My strength and survival are really being tested today.

Could someone please just write me a hall pass for today? 

I need a break from myself. I don’t have the strength to maneuver my way through today. I need to press the pause button on my life right now? 

I try to close my eyes, take a deep breath and imagine a place I’d rather be. It’s magical. I know I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. I’m dealing with alot all at once. I know I need to throw away the guilt and show myself more self-compassion. I know I shouldn’t feel like such a failure and burden.

I know I don’t need anyone’s permission to feel my feelings. I know I have nothing to prove to anyone but myself. I know my feelings are valid but then why does both my pain and limitations make me feel as though they’d be better understood if I had cancer or even a broken leg? Why does that feel so much more accepting and way more forgiving in this moment? 

I’m doing all that I can to protect my mental health today, I know that is the first sign of strength.

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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

2 thoughts on “Hall Pass”

  1. i hate the “i know” thought. it ruins everything, it constantly makes you feel in the wrong when you literally did nothing! anyways, eat your favorite food, drink some water, watch a movie or something and i hope you feel better < 3

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