Feeding My Feelings Kind of Day

I’m feeling quite vulnerable and powerless over my emotions. 

Most everything I set out to do right now feels hard. Writing included. 

On days like today when the world around me feels like it’s about to cave in and I’m pretty much in survival mode, it’s food that seems to be about the only thing that brings me comfort.

I don’t typically crave many foods (but do much prefer sweet over salty), especially of late when one of the many symptoms I’ve been living with over the last while is a pretty steady flow of nausea, but strangely enough, eating helps. Seems almost illogical? Or maybe it’s not?

Maybe it’s not so illogical because sometimes your strongest cravings come to you at your weakest moments and turning to food to supress your emotions can actually soothe negative feelings like stress, anger, fear and sadness. 

Food can sometimes become an easy way to fill an emotional void in your life even when you are not actually hungry but can, at the same time leave you more emotionally drained afterwards with feelings of guilt and shame. 

I’ve spoken quite openly and several times through my writing how in my late teens and into my early 20’s I’d battled an eating disorder (you can find them @ youareenough712.wordpress.com) which has continued to rear its ugly head throughout different stages of my life and in several different forms from near starvation, to compulsively exercising, to excessive purging to emotional eating. 

Each stage of this journey has come with its own set of consequences and setbacks but when you are so deep in it like I’ve been at times you feel as though you have complete control over it even though in my heart I knew I wasn’t then, and am certainly not now. 

But sometimes that impulse to reach for something to eat in order to fill that emotional void will overpower your mind without even realizing you are doing so and instead it becomes a coping mechanism or quick distraction to whatever negative emotions you are trying to avoid. It’s a vicious cycle. 

Are you an emotional eater? What coping skills have you acquired that help you control it?

#emotionaleating #overeating #impulses #distractions #copingskills #negativeemotions #eatingdisorders #feedingyouremotions #cravings #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #sweetvssalty

Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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