I had a consult yesterday afternoon with a specialist. I was referred to her by the Neurologist I’d seen recently. He asked me to contact her to set up an appointment to see if she could offer some further insight into my current condition as he said that she had extensive expertise regarding psychedelic medicine, but then again, so too does my Psychiatrist!!! She was given no background information on me whatsoever before our zoom call. In fact, the Neurologist had never had any interaction with her before doing so. Right away I was frustrated. By the end of our conversation I felt completely depleted, uncomfortable and actually kinda angry. 

I was in no way searching for a new therapist which the Neurologist knew before giving me her contact information. I already have a wonderful therapist whom I work with weekly and is truly invested in my care (as is my Psychiatrist) and he kept reiterating to me during our meetings the importance of continuing to work very closely with my therapist on a regular basis which was why I was very taken aback to find out during the first minute of our call yesterday that the specialist he had referred to me had the exact same credentials as my therapist. I know that the Neurologist’s intentions were coming from a good place when he referred me to her but I felt very misled and totally confused. 

I told her right away that I was not looking for a new therapist. She understood and felt it would be unethical of her when she found out that I already have a therapist but that since this time had been previously alloted for me she was just curious to learn a bit more about my journey and what led me to her. I obliged, yet as our conversation wrapped up a short while later she said she would like to book me in for 4 to 5 additional sessions in order to delve deeper into my “spiritual awakening” and continued by saying that she believes that being an empath likely caused my strong reaction to the drug I was administered.

I’m sure you’ve all heard the proverb before that “too many cooks spoil the broth.” 

The last thing I need right now is to have another “cook” in my kitchen. My Psychiatrist agreed with me when I spoke with him this morning that taking direction from too many “cooks” all at once can likely do way more harm than good. It can quickly become very overcrowded and overwhelming in your kitchen, especially when each “cook” has their own unique styles or way of preparing their soup mix and will only cause more waste and in turn, spoil the “soup” completely. 

I’m the soup and it’s left a pretty sour taste in my mouth today.

#toomanycooksspoilthebroth #psychedelics #clinicaltrial #researchstudy #labrat #sourtaste #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #youareenough

Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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