Super Anxious

I’ve been feeling super anxious and panicked since very early this morning. My heart rate has been extremely elevated all day, making it very difficult to catch my breathe and control my thoughts. I just can’t seem to pinpoint one particular reason for it today nor can I seem to shake it off and none of my usual tools or exercises have helped me either.

I still find myself feeling many physical effects from my treatment Saturday. It’s completely worn me out for the last few days to the point where I’ve honestly felt nothing but a numbness and tingly sensation throughout my entire body. 

I’ve also been having such brain fog and minimal concentration as well but as each day passes I do seem to be drawing more and more abstract images in my mind from my experience on Saturday which could very well be the reason I’m feeling such an overwhelming amount of anxiety and impending doom today.

Maybe I’m meant to be feeling this way. Maybe after such an intense experience it’s my body and mind’s way of removing the many blockades in my brain that has kept me from “gaining more insight and openness toward my future and quality of life”. Maybe it’s meant to feel scary.

#anxietydisorder #panicattack #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #blockades #psilocybin #clinicaltrial #itsoktonotbeok #youarenotalone #youareenough #itsallcomingbacktomenow

Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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