Self-Reflection

Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” ~ Oscar Wilde 

I’ve found myself spending a significant amount of time over the last week on self-reflection as I prepare for my upcoming treatment Saturday morning.

I’ve felt so lost and disconnected from my inner-self for almost 8 years now (this coming Monday will be 8 years to be exact ;( ) that it’s difficult to know who I really am anymore, who I truly want to become or what do I actually hope to gain by finding out. Self-reflection is about taking the time to focus inward in order to find the answers to many of these important questions and more, but in order to do so you must also have a willingness to learn from your past experiences and be completely honest with yourself first.

My Psychiatrist, along with the two other doctors I met with this past  Sunday have all told me that the treatment I’m about to undergo is meant to produce a mind-revealing experience (incase you missed my blog the other day from our meeting, here it is again; https://youareenough712.wordpress.com/2022/03/27/todays-meeting/).

This is where Psilocybin differs from most other experiences I’ve had using psychedelics in the past, including my most recent journey with Ketamine. 

When we think of psychedelics we imagine mind-altering drugs which produce changes to our mood and behaviours as well as heighten our awareness. 

Having a mind-revealing experience however can help remove many of the blockades in our brain which can also help an individual like myself gain more insight and openness toward their future and quality of life. It’s like a light bulb that goes off allowing your brain to reset.

I know I need to deal with so much of my past in order to get to a place of healing which is why being accepted into this research trial had been such a  blessing to me. I am hoping that this treatment will lift many of the blockades that keep my perception of the world around me from facing its fears, from recognizing my self-worth, allowing for more self-compassion and self-acceptance and for understanding my deeper purpose in order to see the bigger picture and finally be able to find my place in it instead. 

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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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