I had an appointment this afternoon with my Psychiatrist. He just got back this week from a two month leave.
Seeing him for the first time since before I began my Ketamine treatments was way more emotional than I’d imagined it to be. I only wish I could’ve reached my arms out wide enough through the computer screen to give him a big hug.
As I’ve mentioned before I’ve felt very much alone in this process by not having known anyone who has personally gone through a similar experience to me and then on top of that, not being able to speak with my Psychiatrist on a regular basis to help guide me through it has only made the experience that much more difficult and unnerving.
It took the better part of an hour to just catch him up on how I’ve been doing in general over the past couple of months and how my overall experience with the treatments went as well. I told him how exhausted and traumatized I’ve been all week since completing “Lucky Number Seven” on Saturday evening.
My appointment today was overwhelming but also very comforting and reassuring at the same time. We didn’t really speak much about next steps, only that for now he would like to put any futher Ketamine treatments on hold. We ended our call by him requesting that we speak again in about a week’s time and asked that for the time being I just concentrate on allowing both my body and brain to heal from the treatments.
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