Forgiveness and Healing

The other night I wrote that I’d been dealing with a very toxic situation in my life for the better part of 3 months now. To be honest, it’d actually been quite torcherous and traumatic some days. It was consuming my entire life. It was all I could think about and talk about and focus on for weeks and months now. I’ve not only felt the decline in my mental health from it, but with my neurological symptoms too. I am also pretty certain that it’s no coincidence and possibly the reason why I have lost 30 pounds over the past 2 months from my lack of appetite, constant nausea and an undiagnosed stress-induced ulcer that my doctor is still investigating. 

Overall, the whole situation had left me feeling beyond overwhelmed, emotionally exhausted and to the point that just days ago I seriously contemplated driving my car into a brick wall because I felt so defeated and trapped. And of course, just to make matters worse, being the empath that I am had left me further torchered by carrying the emotions of everyone else involved too, but as I also mentioned the other night, the situation has finally been rectified which means the healing process can now begin.

Tonight starts the holiday of Yom Kippur which is considered to be the holiest and most important day of the year in the Jewish faith and is as well, a day where many Jews fast and while doing so are encouraged to atone for any wrongdoings and ask others for forgiveness in order to repair the wrongdoings from the past year. 

It is also a time to forgive others and ourselves as well. It is important to come to Yom Kippur with a clean slate and forgiveness is such an important part of the healing process as “it allows us to let go of our anger, guilt, shame, sadness, along with any other feelings we may experience in order to move on.”

“Forgiveness isn’t approving what happened. It’s choosing to rise above it.” – Robin Sharma

Wishing all my family and friends celebrating, an easy, reflective and meaningful fast.

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