My Mornings Are Sacred

Experiencing so many restless and often sleepless nights leaves me feeling extremely tired and lethargic, making it beyond difficult to get out of bed most mornings or to have any type of regular morning routine. 

Because of my many restless and often sleepless nights, my mornings have become a very sacred time of day for me over the last many years. There is often a calmness that fills the air in the morning and a sense of security which allows me to close my eyes and get some rest; it’s more like a quick cat nap, but eventually it gives me enough strength to get up and start my day. But since starting my new job four weeks ago I no longer have the luxury of time in the mornings and it’s been very trying on both my mental and physical health. 

Having to take pause and make some really big changes to my daily routine in order to get to work each morning has been one of the most difficult adjustments I’ve had to make. Not having that safety net and time of day I enjoyed most anymore is making my transition that much harder. 

Depression can make morning routines feel like hell.

To be completely honest though, I’ve never been a morning person. I can’t even tell you the last time I actually ate breakfast; high school perhaps? But even though I’ve never been much of a morning person, I always managed to function and be productive; the kids were none the wiser growing up. Nowadays however I need to rely on those same kids (well mostly Hannah) to be my alarm clock or Rich, who is already at work, to call me. He and I are polar opposites when it comes to our morning routine; he actually enjoys waking up at the crack of dawn and makes selfcare a top priority in the morning, whereas I leave myself very little time for anything, let alone selfcare; choosing to stay in bed until the last possible second. 

They say your eyes tell us so much more than words ever can; those dark circles under them pretty much say it all.

But I’m doing my best to give myself grace at the moment. 

And as to how the actual job itself is going, well that’s a whole other story for another day.

Are you a morning person or a night owl? 

#morningroutine #nightowl #change #giveyourselfgrace #mentalhealth #youreyes #mentalwellness #selflove #compassion #selfcare #overwhelmed #tired #depression #youareenough

Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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