I haven’t felt like writing or sharing much lately, which is totally okay. There is just too much on my plate right now and I’m having a really hard time focusing and trying to process it all.
It’s wearing me down.
It’s also been a really busy few weeks for me. I know there are some people who read this and probably think all I do most days is lay around in bed.
But I don’t.
Some people may also believe that keeping busy would be a great way to distract my thoughts and help me feel better.
But it doesn’t always work that way, especially these days when I’m dealing with so many physical issues on top of my already very distressing mental health and personal issues. And besides, no one can be busy 24 hours a day.
People often view their own self-worth or the status of others by how busy they are and that the busier you are the more deserving you are of some sort of badge of honour. Many of these same people may very well be trying to keep super busy in order to avoid or numb a painful feeling or situation in their life.
I’m just gonna be honest, I don’t like the days or weeks where I’m super busy. It only makes me more anxious. When a person like myself is feeling depressed, everything they do takes up more energy, ALOT more energy; even a simple or mundane task can quickly become super overwhelming and stressful.
I actually find that I get a lot less accomplished the busier I am as well because the overwhelm and stress just makes me wish I could crawl back into bed or throw in the towel. Sometimes being too busy becomes counter-productive and often, for me anyways makes my feelings way more intense.
I need to gently remind myself that it’s okay to disconnect from some unnecessary obligations or learn to say no more, without guilt when I am feeling overwhelmed or pressure to do more than I am capable of and that it doesn’t mean I am any less valuable or worthy. I have also recently set a reminder on my phone that reminds me to take a time out each day to breathe.
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