Unchartered Waters

I received a “tentative” date earlier today for my first dose (and hopefully only dose!) of Psilocybin (aka Magic Mushrooms) to be administered on April 2, 2022, taking between 8 to 10 hours in length. There will be one final assessment done the week prior as well as a follow up appointment the day after it is administered lasting approximately another 3 to 4 hours along with a mix of virtual and in-person meetings throughout the next 6 months. 

But because I will be participating in a Clinical Research Trial, these dates could randomly change on a moment’s notice due to some logistics of how the study is conducted (science is like really not my forte so I couldn’t even begin to tell you how this stuff works 😑!).

People say to me all the time, “Kim, it will get better, I promise you it will.”, and although it’s always very well intentioned, it’s still really, really hard to believe it most days after everything I’ve already been through. Yet for almost 8 years now there’s been a small part of me that somehow finds the strength to keep putting in the work so that one day I can prove everyone right even if the hardest part of my journey has been believing I’m even worth it. 

I’ve posted the link to my Blog I wrote a couple of months ago when I first began the process of being accepted into this trial (the first of its kind in Canada), giving a more indepth explanation of what the study’s intentions are. https://youareenough712.wordpress.com/2021/12/22/am-i-a-warrior-or-just-a-glutton-for-punishment/

So as I set sail once again and row out into more choppy and unchartered waters on this next leg of my journey I will keep trying to remind myself that “you can never cross the ocean until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.” ~ Christopher Columbus ❤️ 

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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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