“Depression is being colorblind and constantly being told how colorful the world is.” ~ Atticuspoetry
Today was one of those perfect fall days. The air crisp but not cold, the trees still clinging to that last burst of colour, and a quiet stillness that feels like nature taking a long, deep breath before winter.
I needed it.
My mind has been anything but quiet lately. A relentless hum of thoughts that never seem to rest, looping on themselves, louder than I can bear. There’s a certain kind of chaos that builds slowly, quietly, until one day you realize you’re carrying too much of it.
So I did what I always do when life feels too loud: I went for a hike.
Hiking clears space in my cluttered head, and nature gently reminds me that it’s okay to let go of the pain I can’t control. They work together as a reset button.
The #SummerOfRich season is fading now, and with it comes the end of the long days, the warmth of the sun, and that easy sense of energy. Tomorrow, the forecast calls for snow, and as much as that first dusting can look beautiful, it also brings something heavier for me: the cold. I hate winter.
Even in the brief shift of shorter days, I can already feel the familiar weight of seasonal affective disorder settling in, layering itself over the usual fog. It’s like a light dims both outside and inside me. When I’m not getting outside or moving my body, I spiral quickly — darkness finds its way in too easily. It’s a slippery slope into an abyss that’s hard to climb back out of.
That’s why today mattered. The hike wasn’t just about fresh air or pretty views. It was an act of self-preservation, showing up for myself, and a reminder that even when the world feels heavy and gray, there are moments of peace and space to breathe, waiting.
Winter is coming — and with it is the challenge of keeping my mental health from slipping further. But I’m trying to hold on to days like this one. To stay moving, stay connected, and remember that light still exists, even when it tries to hide itself for a while.
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