Every time I feel even the slightest bit of hope that our healthcare system isn’t completely broken, it finds a way to disappoint me again. And not just in small, manageable ways, but in ways that chip away at your spirit and break off just a little more of me in the process.
Every time I start to believe, “Maybe this time it’ll be different.” It never is. When our healthcare system is supposed to help but ends up making things harder, it can feel isolating, exhausting, and even defeating.
That was my week.
A week filled with frustration, helplessness, and the quiet kind of anger that simmers below the surface. At the end of it, all that I was left with was an aching feeling of guilt for desperately needing care and a sense that maybe my health and my worth don’t matter.
So today, I walked.
Rich and I took to the trails for a lovely #summerofrich, fall edition adventure close to home.
I may have taken my frustration, helplessness, and anger with me but with the sun’s warmth on my skin and the gentle crunch of the falling leaves beneath my feet I felt a quiet reminder that not everything is broken. I let myself feel it all; the fear and exhaustion included. Then I let the trail give me space to heal. Out there, surrounded by trees starting to turn colour, I felt something shift. Not fixed. Not gone. But released. Just a little bit.
I even walked off the disappointment of the Jays game last night!!
My story is still unfolding. I’m still tired. Still angry. Still afraid. But today, I walked it out. And for now, that’s enough. Or at least, it has to be.
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YouAreEnough 