Finding Light on the Heavy Days

Yesterday, Rich and I spent a peace- filled afternoon visiting one of our favourite farmer’s markets followed by a beautiful and serene hike. On our way home, we stopped to grab a bite to refuel when I received a phone call that quickly unraveled in ways I did not expect, and suddenly, our plans for the evening turned to chaos. 


The emotional weight, heaviness, and trauma I carry with me every where I go took over. My peace-filled Saturday afternoon was now nothing more than a blur. All I could do to get through was hold my breath and hope to come up for air.


This morning, once there was a moment to exhale, I knew what I needed most today was a reset, and space to feel and heal after a challenging night, so Rich and I headed to a familiar place that was calling to me; a sunflower field with endless rows of golden petals in full bloom, each one lifting its head toward the sun, as if they were holding on to the promise of a brighter tomorrow; standing unapologetically tall, even with all their imperfections. 


Maybe it’s the reason why they have always been my favourite flower. 


As we walked through the fields, surrounded by sunflowers, the warmth from the hot sun glistening off my shoulders melted some of the heaviness I was carrying. 


Sometimes, walking through a field full of sun-kissed, radiant flowers feels like enough after a night that nearly broke me. 


If you are going through a hard time; take a moment to step outside, breathe, and find your version of a sunflower 🌻.


“Keep your face always toward the sunshine, and shadows will fall behind you.” ~ Walt Whitman


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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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