I’m having a much harder time finding ways to move on from my toxic workplace. More than I ever imagined. It’s left deep emotional wounds, and the lingering trauma is overwhelming me.
Healing from trauma is never linear and often messy.
Although some may think that I should “just move on,” it is much easier said than done.
My experiences and lingering trauma from a place where I spent so much of my time under constant stress and being mistreated has left my sense of self-worth and identity in the toilet.
Someone who has never gone through an experience such as I have often can’t understand that trauma doesn’t follow a timeline, and it is unfair to believe otherwise. There are those who have sat in my shoes before but are not comfortable dealing with unresolved pain, whether it’s their own or not. And that’s okay too.
Yes, I am beyond grateful to have found a better job where everyone is so welcoming, but it can’t erase the emotional damage or the way one’s nervous system still responds to past harm. One doesn’t cancel out the other.
Better doesn’t mean healed.
It’s not like there is a switch I can flip on and off overnight.
I know I don’t owe anyone an explanation. I just owe myself time.
I’m still trying to make sense of what happened. Being mistreated and chronically stressed out by my former employer for so long has deeply impacted my self-esteem and sense of trust.
I may not be able to release the pressure to “move on” yet, but I’m doing my best to move through it.
I am healing at my own pace, and that is enough for now.
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