I Must’ve Done Something Right

I may not be a perfect Mom, but I’m totally real.

Besides which, perfection is overrated.

Yet I still struggle with this a lot.

Burdened by the guilt that I’ve let them down.

Taken away a piece of their childhood.

A part of their innocence.

They see me at my worst.

Vulnerable. Defeated. Broken.

My kids don’t have a perfect Mom, no matter how hard I try.

And I do try.

They just have me.

Their loudest cheerleader.

Their strongest advocate.

Their biggest ally.

Kids don’t need a perfect Mom, though.

They just need a real one.

Yet knowing this, I’m still left burdened by the guilt that I’ve let them down.

But they are thriving.

Resilient. 

Decent humans.

Funny, too.

Who continually get back up after they fall.

Love isn’t about being perfect. It’s about showing up again and again. 

And they do.

I do, too. Even on the hard days.

I guess it must be true. Kids don’t need a perfect Mom because despite all my flaws, I must have done something right.

It’s been a busy Mother’s Day so far, and it’s not done yet. It’s included a visit with my brother to see my mom this morning, an obligatory, once a year hike with the kids (missing Rachel who is away at the moment) and dinner with my mother in law. Thank you, Rich, for the beautiful flowers and to my kiddies for the awesome belt bag that will be the perfect edition to all our future #summerofrich hiking adventures. What will make today complete will be celebrating a “W” from the Leafs tonight!

“The stories we tell ourselves are powerful, so be careful what story you’re telling yourself” ~ Kristina Kuzmic

Happy Mother’s Day to all the perfectly imperfect Mamas’  💗 and a special shout out to all the beautiful, loving, selfless, exhausted, courageous, badass, inspiring, hardworking, resilient, caring, kindhearted, humble, broken, capable, confident, bold, fabulous Mamas today and every day . You are amazing.

#HappyMothersDay #cherishthemoments #mythreereasonswhy #makingmemories #family #familymatters #perfectlyimperfect #beingreal #inthemoment #mentalhealth #mentalillness #yourmentalhealthmatters

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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma.

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