My mental health has been on a downward spiral of late. It all came to a head yesterday afternoon and brought me into crisis status. I came close to being carted off to the emergency room in the back of a police cruiser again.
I haven’t felt much like writing or sharing any of the painful parts of my journey lately (some of which I just can’t). I know I don’t owe it to anyone, but, at the same time, I feel this unwritten sense of obligation to do so which only puts even more pressure on my already fragile state of mind.
Writing is a creative outlet for me and should never feel forced. It’s supposed to be therapeutic, but lately, it’s felt otherwise. Maybe it’s because lately I’ve felt so defeated, disconnected, and as though I don’t belong here, there, or anywhere for that matter.
I didn’t sleep much last night after the trauma my body and mind endured yesterday and I am still feeling quite shaken and anxious today, but when I awoke early this morning to a random and most appreciated private message on my Facebook page from one very thoughtful follower of mine where she shared with me, a half dozen pictures of beautifully painted rocks with an array of inspirational messages on them and a note attached that read,
“Saw this today and thought of you.
Hope you have an awesome day.”,
I was quickly reminded that I do belong. I am surrounded by such an incredible community that continues to root for me. Her message of hope couldn’t have come at a better time. She had no idea of the trauma that took place yesterday but thought of me just because. I am so grateful.
I wanted to share these beautifully painted rocks here today for anyone else reading this who may also need a message of hope or a gentle reminder that no matter what, you are worthy and enough too.
Happy Superbowl Sunday, everyone!
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YouAreEnough 