This past week has really tested both my strength and self-worth. I’ve been dealing with a very trying and toxic situation for months now, something I’ve never shared publicly.
As the week came to a close, I was beyond overwhelmed, exhausted, and felt defeated as the situation escalated. My whole world feels like it’s about to implode. My heart feels so incredibly heavy that my spirit is broken.
I feel trapped and scared. Unable to breathe. Consumed by guilt. I’m in survival mode right now and left wondering if life is even worth living if I have to continue to live this way.
I’m not good at confrontation. But I need to be. I don’t deserve to be taken advantage of. Being taken advantage of just leaves you feeling powerless. I’m feeling powerless. I deserve to feel empowered. It’s like being back in my childhood again.
Growing up, I never felt as though I had a voice or important enough to have one, so I learned to suppress my thoughts, opinions, and needs. I started to believe that my needs weren’t worthy.
I’m a people pleaser.
I could have spent my entire weekend hiding under my covers, crying. I know how imperative it is that we listen to our bodies and minds when they are telling us that we need to take a break and a step away from our daily stresses in order to recharge, refresh and reset. So I did just that.
This weekend, feeling completely empty, I gave myself permission to fill my cup first. There was some hiding under my covers, crying, but there was also lots of hiking, being in nature, boating, waterfalls, and spending quality time with amazing friends; recharging, refreshing and resetting
What did you do to fill your cup this weekend?
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