Old emotional wounds ebb and flow throughout my soul today.
They feel bigger than me at the moment.
Often, what at first thought may feel like nothing at all can wind up triggering some of the most painful reactions.
I will not let them own me, though.
Healing is never an easy process.
Forgiveness isn’t either.
It ebbs and flows.
It has many complicated layers.
While mindfully peeling those layers of my emotional wounds away over the last many years though, I have learned to accept that it’s okay to feel sad sometimes after making a right decision.
I’m done crying over someone or something that doesn’t deserve my tears.
I’ve accepted that I don’t have to give myself away to those who don’t deserve me.
Why should I keep hoping some people will change, but knowing they never will?
When we learn to put ourselves first, sometimes it comes with the risk of losing what we once thought were valued relationships, only to find out when we take a deeper look inside ourselves that our values never truly aligned at all.
It’s been a risk worth taking and has helped me learn to accept that not all relationships are worth the effort or emotional pain they cause.
Although I still struggle to heal the emotional wounds of my childhood, some of which may never truly heal at all, therapy has allowed me to see people as they are, and know that it’s ok to place them where they belong.
#healing #complicated #relationshipsworthfightingfor #emotionalwounds #ebbandflow #pain #iamenough #mentalhealth #myjourney #itsoktobesad #childhoodtrauma #familymatters
YouAreEnough 