I’m NOT Okay.
And I’ve come to an understanding this week that I’m NOT enough and never will be, which is why I am taking a break from my blog/writing/feeds for now for the sake of my mental health. I need to somehow figure out how I will ever, or if I will ever be able to come back from the overwhelming feelings of grief, betrayal, and triggers in my life. So much of my childhood trauma has resurfaced. The same trauma that has kept me in this never-ending loop of depression, anxiety and suicidal ideations for nearly 10 years now. It never truly goes away. I thought I was stronger than it, but clearly I’m not. I thought I had it under control, but clearly, I don’t.
I wish I could be more. I wish I was more than enough. It’s an unbearable weight to carry.
Today is “Random Acts of Kindness Day”, so before I go, I have one simple favour to ask; be the reason someone smiles today. Every act of kindness, whether big or small can brighten another person’s day and can mean the world to someone at just the right moment in time.
Xoxo
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YouAreEnough 