During an appointment with my Psychiatrist yesterday, I let him know how vulnerable I have been feeling lately due to my frustration and anger toward the lack of communication with the specialist I was scheduled to see this coming week. I declared defeat as I updated him on what has been happening, and how THREE emails and a follow up phone call nearly 2 weeks ago, where she promised she would send me the signed insurance form right after we hung up, once again never got sent.
He completely understood my frustration and anger and acknowledged how, once again, our healthcare system has failed me.
I told him that I no longer have the energy to keep going or to keep fighting for my life. Once again, he completely understood, but encouraged me to please try one last time to contact them today and instead of cancelling my appointment all together for this coming Friday, that I try to reschedule it for another day, hoping they would finally hear my cry for help and send me the stupid document I need from them in order to submit it to insurance. A form she promised to sign at my initial consultation on Dec 6th.
I agreed and set aside some time to call the specialist’s office this morning; it’s not an easy feat for me. After finding enough courage to make the call, I was then left on hold for quite some time before the receptionist finally answered. She proceeded to search for the form, which she eventually found sitting in my file. It was signed but never sent out. The kind and patient woman on the other end of the phone then asked me if I would do her a favour and call her back again in 10 to 15 minutes as she needed to speak with someone before releasing it (the doctor was not there today). I asked her, nicely, to please call me back when she was ready because it is very difficult to get through to them and very difficult for me to find the energy to make another call.
Two hours later, she called me back, emailed me the form, (woohoo) and rebooked my appointment. When, you ask? In 3 months from now. SMH.
Rich submitted the form for me as soon as he got home from work today, so for now, it’s a wait and see game. I now have to wait and see if, after all this, insurance will even cover the procedure at all, and if so, do I even have the strength anymore to wait another 3 months to see if the treatment will even slightly help my symptoms.
Xoxo
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