I am now halfway through my 10 day staycation which has so far been met with an abundance of anxiety, lots of tears, restless nights, unrelenting flare-ups and a mind that won’t stop wandering to a very dark place, but, still, I have kept the promise I made to myself before the start of this much needed break that I would not let the stressors in my everyday life deter me from my goal of making time for family, friends, mental wellness, and selfcare. A promise I have kept so far even through the abundance of anxiety, tears, restless nights, unrelenting flare-ups and a mind that won’t stop wandering to a very dark place.
Work has barely entered my mind too. In all reality, in the 10 days I have off, I am only missing 3 work days, and even though I will pay for it upon my return next week, I am allowing myself to take this time off for me. I deserve it.
There has been no real agenda this week except to do a whole lot of nothing. I set no underlying expectations of what I should or shouldn’t be doing with my time off and I’ve made no plans that I felt obligated to follow through on if I just wasn’t up for it, yet I feel guilty when I’m doing nothing, and maybe that’s part of my problem, except I really haven’t been doing nothing. I’ve spent loads of time relaxing with family and friends while indulging in my mental wellness and selfcare.
So I’d say that so far I’ve had some great successes during my staycation afterall, none of which I should have anything to feel guilty about at all because like Oscar Wilde once said, “it’s awfully hard work doing nothing.”
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