My mental health has been in the toilet.
It all came to a head the other night and my depression was winning the battle.
The “why” doesn’t really matter now.
I felt completely lost and alone.
Depression still follows me everywhere I go.
Some days may feel lighter than others, but when the hard days far outweigh the “good” ones, it’s really difficult to remember how a good day feels, especially of late.
Some may wonder, can a depressed person actually have a “good” day? Can they feel normal, at times?
For me, a “good” day may include feeling less of a burden to my loved ones.
For me, a “good” day may find my mind somewhat quieter.
For me, a “good” day I am able to count my blessings and know that I have many.
For me, a “good” day I feel like I’m less of a failure and instead proud of all that I have accomplished.
For me, a “good” day I can get through a trigger without it taking a tremendous toll on my body.
For me, a “good” day my heart truly believes that I am loved and needed.
For me, a “good” day doesn’t consist of constant thoughts of how much I hate myself.
For me, a “good” day is laughing with friends and not having to fake it.
For me, a “good” day is when my thoughts aren’t completely consumed by guilt.
For me, a “good” day is when the easy things feel easy and the hard things don’t feel so hard.
For me, a “good” day feels like life can almost be worth living.
Today I finally took a long, deep breath for the first time in days as Rich and I explored the beauty of the Fall season on a #summerofrich hike. It was a great distraction. I pushed myself through the pain I’m in today after I tripped and fell yesterday afternoon outside my office (like I need more pain 🙄) which has since left me feeling further bruised, battered, swollen, and unsure if I have possibly fractured my elbow 😵💫.
We all need to embrace the good days, or for someone like me, it’s more about learning how to embrace the good moments.
Be gentle and kind to everyone, including yourself, for we are all battling something.
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