Yesterday afternoon I went to a long overdue appointment to see my doctor. I have ALOT of anxiety when it comes to making appointments for myself, especially ones which require me to actually pick up the phone to do so; this spans WAY beyond just doctor’s appointments.
Lucky for me though, my GP’s office just happened to call me the other morning about something completely unrelated and totally random and so I jumped at the opportunity to finally make that long overdue appointment which I’ve avoided now for weeks; even after several kindhearted friends and other amazing supports of mine urged me to make the call, some even offering to call for me.
I had mentioned several weeks ago that I have suddenly been experiencing very debilitating nausea; day and night, rapid and unprovoked weightloss within a very short period of time (which I should be grateful for but knew it was not healthy), an unrelenting feeling of fullness/bloatedness that often lasts for hours on end, even when I’ve only taken a few sips of a drink and several other symptoms as well.
After a brief examination and hearing me list off my symptoms one by one, my doctor is almost certain that I may have an ulcer, likely due to a combination of stress and the never-ending strain my body has been under for the past year and a half since the Psilocybin treatment.
Stress related ulcers usually come on suddenly and are often related to inflammation, mental health or physiological issues.
I’m three for three.
My doctor gave me a prescription for a medication and asked me to try it for the next few weeks to see whether or not my symptoms will subside on their own before sending me for a scope.
I guess like with everything else I’m dealing with, I will just have to try and be patient for now, as frustrating and nerve-ending as it may be. It’s been difficult enough just trying to navigate through life for 9 years now with treatment resistant depression, suicidal ideations almost daily (yes even in those moments of joy) and severe and often debilitating anxiety, but the last couple of years have truly been the most stressful years of my entire journey; and way beyond anything I’ve ever shared on any of my platforms.
So when all is said and done, if it is an ulcer that’s causing this added strain of symptoms on my body, all I have to say is, “What’s taken you so long to arrive? And you might as well get in line with the rest of ’em!”
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