I showed up last night

I was overwhelmed with so much emotion as I entered the corridor. I took note right away of where the closest restrooms were just in case I needed to make a quick exit.


There were familiar faces at every turn from people I’ve known for almost 40 years of my life; most of whom I hadn’t seen in probably a decade or more. 


My fear of rejection I’d projected in my own mind as I made my way through the corridor to the coat check area, quickly slipped away with each genuine and warm embrace I received along the way. 


I shed both tears of sadness and tears of joy last night.


Throughout the evening I caught up with old friends as we shared in meaningful conversations. I shared in the laughter with each new connection I made and with those same familiar faces who had greeted me in the corridor earlier that evening with genuine and warm embraces. 


I was present in each moment. 


Depression can challenge many of your relationships; trust me I know that feeling all too well. I only wish though that more people could understand that:


“Depression doesn’t diminish a person’s desire to connect with other people, just their ability.” ~Bill Bernat


But when you are lucky enough to find the right people in your life; the people that is who aren’t afraid to sit with you in silence or cry with you during the difficult moments or who let you know by either their words or actions just how much it means to them every time you do show up; those are the relationships worth fighting for and the ones I will always show up for. 

In case you missed my blog last night, click here: https://wheredidmommyssmilego.com/2023/02/18/mirror-mirror-on-the-wall-whos-the-fairest-of-them-all/



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Author: Kim Fluxgold

Wife, mom of 3 beautiful children, dog lover, creative sole and children's book Author. Sharing my journey with depression and anxiety through blogging in hopes of educating and ending the stigma. View all posts by Kim Fluxgold